Counting Down The Days...

In my last post I was on the countdown to have a break from my children. I wanted and needed some time away... Now, however, I am really missing them and wish that I had the little buggers right here with me! They come back Friday! At the moment I am so excited that I can hardly contain myself. It's funny what a small break can do for you... =) Sadly, I do know that this will be the last kid-free time that I have for a whole year. That isn't something that I prefer to think about, but I am going to make the most of it... Mainly by trying not to forget to get a babysitter every once in a while so that I can learn to enjoy myself.
Other than that, I don't seem to have a lot going on right now... The boyfriend and I are still broken up. I'm thinking less and less about ever going there again with each day that passes. I reunited with my first love and I would love to have a second chance there, but it's just not the right timing currently... Oh, and I met a new guy that I find to be sweet and adorable in every way, but I am waiting that out because I just want to be sure that I'm not just doing the rebound thing.
I can't wait until August... I really want to get started with school again as soon as possible! This nursing degree is one of the few things that keeps me going on some days. I just want to be able to have something I can be proud of doing one day...
Well, I'm off for now.

Thanks for reading,
Alicia

One More Day!

I have been emailing back and forth with the ex-husband for a few days now getting visitation worked out for what was originally just his parents. He was able to work out getting his R&R time though and will be back in the states next week. The boys know that tomorrow they'll be leaving to see their grandparents, but they will be thrilled to go to the airport and see their daddy get off the plane! I also cannot wait for a little down time. I have so many things that I want to get done that right now I'm trying to figure out what to do first...
Of course, I also have someone telling me that I should take this time to spend with him, I mean after all, how long will it be before I can do that again? I want to, I really, really want to, I just have my reservations about it. It's not about him, I've finally figured that out... It's about the fact that so much of my life revolves around being a mom that I am not sure I can handle trying not to worry while they're gone... Not to mention the fact that for several days, my boys will not be with their father, they'll be with HER. I'm just not sure I'm good with that. I'm trying to be a good sport though, I really am...
Well, duty calls, I need to finish packing and I have to do some work... ThirtyOne is so wonderful to me, how can I really call it work? :-)

Thanks for reading,
Alicia